Yes, I recognise that feeling very well. You're going to have to concentrate on one thing for a while, or you're never going to get a word down. But, this struck me, as a mild form of the classic (and disastrous) writer's perfectionism:
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But 'wrong' isn't the point, and nor is it a commitment. When I get struck by this fear - and I do - I take three deep breaths and stare at the monitor like a life coach, and say, 'This is a first draft. Everything is negotiable. Every word may change. Nothing is set in stone.' Or, in my brasher moments, 'Don't get it right, get it written.'
Which of these really makes your mouth water? Which is banging around most loudly in the back of your head when you're trying to do something else? That's probably where you should start.
While you're writing, remember that any road you don't follow during the first draft IS STILL THERE. Make a note of the side-turning and keep on. You can re-write the entire book, if you discover the side-turning was what you wanted. That's not the end of the world. Nothing you write is ever wasted. All my novels go down side-turnings that earlier novels ignored.
But where to start, yes, that's hard. For me, the real map of a novel is how the main character changes. What is the mental and emotional journey - often a physical journey as well - that I want them to take? Where do they start? Roughly where will they end up? And what events are most likely to shake him/her up and change him/her? I understand the appeal of the picaresque novel, but I think if it's going to be more than fun, there has to be an underlying (overarching?) drive through from beginning to end, and I suspect the way of making that work is much the same as for any novel, however many gypsy troupes or drunken aristocrats you throw in along the way.
On the face of it, maybe you can combine the ideas you've mentioned in some way. And if you can't, perhaps you can pin down what's so appealing about some of the discarded ones, and get at them in another way that's more compatible with the main thread.
Sorry, thinking aloud really, don't think that's much use.
Emma