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State Of Decay (originally Decay Syndrome)

by Dan 

Posted: 06 March 2004
Word Count: 1782
Summary: Although this is a short story in its own right (and somewhat revamped from its original version), it's also an important component of my fist novel, which will have three main characters, all with different POVs. I'm still undecided whether to have this character as first person POV, or the rarer but (I think) more powerful, second person POV ("you"). Any comments welcome. The novel itself is a satire. Cause and effect figure quite highly in it. Dan.


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Friday morning.

Through my grimy window, I watch the old man shuffle past with his new companion. An aged Alsatian used to accompany him, and had done so every day since I moved into my flat, some five years previously. About a month ago, the old man and his Alsatian ceased to mark my time, and I speculated which one of them had died. Last week the old man reappeared with his new companion, an energetic young Labrador. Today, having urinated against one of the many abandoned, cannibalised cars that lie discarded in the street, the Labrador seems especially vigorous, dragging the old man against his natural pace. He’s trying to rein in the dog, looking resentful and aggrieved, and yet, a few days earlier, I saw him kneel before the animal and embrace it with a clear and honest love. He’d seemed to whisper into its ear. The animal had wagged its tail gently, rhythmically, as if agreeing with whatever the old man was saying. Having finished his communion with the dog, the old man had slowly straightened up, huddling into his ancient black greatcoat to escape the blustery chill wind. There are few trees in the street, but the mass of uncollected litter does a fair impersonation of autumn leaf fall, although failing to obscure the grey, crumbling flats as it’s gusted around. Most of the flats on the other side of my street have boarded up windows and missing slates, while many display evidence of fire damage. A few - mine not included - have satellite dishes sprouting from their walls. Whether they’re tuned into the government broadcasts or the increasingly surreal diet of gameshows, I can’t tell. Whichever one, I sense that the viewers are missing the real show as, like autistic ants, they instead turn inwards upon themselves. Coughing, I walk slowly to the bookshelf, Chemical by New Order thumping from my stereo at almost maximum power, vibrating the bare floor. My large collection of alphabetically arranged science fiction is mute, yet ready to engage if desired. Most of the authors on my bookshelf are dead now, their vision swirling in and out of their imagined realities and my real one. I imagine that the combined prophecies of these writers has either created or contaminated my timeline, bringing about the nightmare reality that I’m trying to escape. Did they ever imagine what would become, what has become, or did they help to create it? I sweep past Heinlein (militaristic fascist), Dick (paranoid pill popping visionary) and Disch (subversive poet). I choose Ballard and become enraptured once more by The Concentration City.

Monday afternoon.

Voting day. Up the path towards the school entrance. Four chairs ahead of me, not blocking the entrance, but denying my desire line. In each chair a party acolyte with clipboard and forced smile. The middle-aged man with the red rosette says hello and asks me for my voting number. I know very well why he asks this. It’s so that he can delete me from his copy of the electoral register, thereby giving him one less potential voter to hunt towards the close of polling. In the past, this was the standard method of achieving these crucial extra votes. Now, with the military in control, the very idea of voting is completely insane. I suspect that many people spoil their ballot paper for this reason alone. I certainly intend to spoil mine, but this won’t be the first time. I know that I don’t have to divulge my voting number, so I ignore the pretend socialist and instead put my mouth close to the ear of the older woman with the blue rosette that signifies her allegiance to the National Party.
"You look like an orang-utan and you smell like a baboon, but don’t worry, you’ll be dead in six months."
Dropping her clipboard, she looks aghast at my vehement, whispering certainty and bulging blue eyes. I smile, knowing that it’s my medication that makes me behave in this manner. Waving gaily at the worker from the Green Alliance Party, I walk over the grass towards the school entrance. Beneath my feet, worms ceaselessly aerate the soil. Above me, in the pink sky, the curved contrail left by the hypersonic jetliner is beginning to dissipate. By now, the craft will have landed at Woomera Immigration Control. I picture my daughter, disembarking, safe at last from the entropic clutch of the old country. I know there are other children on that flight too, and the thought makes me smile, at least for a second. Entering the empty school hall, I look around. Still stuck to much of the wall space are faded pictures drawn by young children - houses with smoking chimneys, trees, flowers, mothers and fathers, birds in the sky, the sun with a happy face. I stare at these pictures for a moment, breathing in the still present scent of childhood. One of these incredible moments of silence descends, a silence when all external noises simultaneously cease, just for a second or two, before intruding again. Approaching the voting booths, tears run down my cheeks as I hum a tune whose name I can’t remember.

Sunday morning.

The car is mashed into a fabulously un-carlike shape, glinting in the weak morning sun. Minutes earlier, I was crossing the road after purchasing a newspaper, it’s front page plastered with the usual crude, nationalistic nonsense. I ignored this and anticipated solving the crossword – my real reason for the visiting the newsagent – back in the relative warmth of my flat. Hearing a squeal of tyres, I turned as quickly as my leaden feet would allow, to see the car take the corner too fast. The driver over corrected, causing the back wheels to lose their grip. Clipping the advertising pillar, the car was spun and flipped onto its roof, before rolling several times down the middle of the empty road with a thudding screech. As always, the military aren’t bothering to free the driver, instead, the ironically termed rescue appliance is completing the transformation from car to coffin by crushing the wreck into a steel cube with its compressor ram. Conversion completed, a hydraulic grab lifts the cube onto the storage rack, where it’s secured by metal clasps. Arriving at siren enriched speed, the rescue appliance now glides silently away from the scene like a scarlet hearse. Across the city, other crashed cars and their occupants are being thus converted.

Tuesday night.

I hear a scream from outside. Through my window I see a woman – Sarah, my neighbour - being assaulted in the street by a man, the scene harshly illuminated by the orange sodium glow of the streetlamp. I stare at the weapon on my bed. It’s an automatic shotgun – a Ruger – shortbarrelled, lightweight, mostly plastic and good for close range work. I’d acquired the weapon last week, to deal with myself or the renegades, whichever came first. My time in the army had taught me much about guns and killing, and I’d been useful for a while. During the Central African disaster, I’d suffered a nervous breakdown, caused in part by the massacres that I was often witness and occasionally party to. Flown home, my mental collapse was swiftly followed by that of the government, its fall blamed on that crazy overseas adventure and the subsequent fuel and food crisis back home. Anarchy, already in progress, had escalated to frighteningly violent levels. Within days, thousands were dead and the military had taken over. Many suspected that they’d been behind these machinations all along. I knew they had. I took little notice of the violence itself; the rapidly worsening situation instead propelled me into my final mission – to convert my considerable savings into a one way flight for my daughter. I’d already contacted my sister in Townsville and she was ready to take on the role of surrogate. Sarah screams as the man punches her again - I think he may be her husband, or lover or something – I can’t really be sure. Through the glass, I know he can see me, even though to him I must present only a silhouette. His mouth is twisted, distorted as he shouts something in my direction. A tiresome cliché, I’m sure. I return his rage with a calm stare. He strikes Sarah again and she falls to the ground. Abruptly, I grab the Ruger and walk out into the street. Sarah is curled into a ball, the man kicking her, swearing violently, screaming at her to give him the keys to the car. I fire two shots at the streetlamp, and it explodes into fragments. The sound of this contrasts oddly with the hollow double boom of the Ruger, but the combined noise is absolutely deafening, and the man jumps backwards from Sarah as if electrocuted, transparent shards from the extinguished streetlamp falling around him. A dog is barking hysterically somewhere in the darkness. I feel completely murderous with rage, my adrenaline pumping furiously, my heart hammering The noise of the Ruger going off is still ringing in my ears as I address the man with a psychotic snarl.
"Walk away. Don’t look back, don’t come back. If you do, I’ll shoot your fucking legs off."
There’s no argument. The man does almost exactly as I command, except that that he runs instead of walking. Imagining him trying to run with no legs, I kneel at Sarah’s side. She seems more shocked than hurt, her face bruised and bloodied, but not - as far as I can tell - broken. Helping her upright, I ask if she’d like a cup of tea. She mumbles yes and then starts weeping. I embrace her awkwardly, yet with real feeling, wishing that I could do more than just offer tea at this moment. Holding her tightly to me, I look up at The Plough. Ten years ago in France, on a camping holiday in the Vendee, I remember soothing my crying baby daughter back to sleep - a nightmare had awakened her - then stepping outside the tent to gaze at the night sky. The Plough had looked down on me then, as it does now, a familiar pattern in the chaotic vastness of time and space. An immense and aching sadness surges through me at this moment, the pain of it causing me to stagger. I collect myself with an effort and help Sarah across the street, towards my filthy decaying flat, the only one in my block not boarded up. Inside my head, a clock is ticking. In the distance, a car alarm begins to wail.

Copyright ©2004 Dan McNeil






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KnoxOverstreet at 08:06 on 06 March 2004  Report this post
Dan - this is very good. Some unusual choices of words along the way, which keep it pacy despite the sardonic voice used. In my opinion you've hit it on the head with the first person here, second person is one of those things you can only use sparingly - although for a great example it's worth seeing how Iain Banks uses it in Complicity to make the reader feel as if they are a serial killer (hence the title). A couple of minor things: I would drop the past-perfect simple tense at the start of Tuesday night in cases like "I’d acquired the weapon" to just "I acquired the weapon" as it keeps it slick, and in line with the rest. Good luck with this. I look forward to reading more.

Julian


Dan at 18:58 on 06 March 2004  Report this post
Julian - thanks very much for your positive comments, I'm still not 100% happy with this one, but you've given me plenty of encouragement.

Dan.

Becca at 21:02 on 06 March 2004  Report this post
Dan, this is tight writing, I felt if you could distance yourself from it a bit more it would be easier to read. I don't see what I've read as a short story, but as part of a novel, there are no ends and beginnings. But I suspect you're much more interested in writing this much longer thing than caring if it conforms to the short story form.
Becca.

Dan at 21:54 on 06 March 2004  Report this post
Becca - I think you're right. Although I wrote this as a short story, I think that subconciously it was always part of a greater whole, even though at the time I wrote it I wasn't aware of what the greater whole would be. I do now though. Having said that, you're also right in that I don't care if it conforms to the short story form. That's what I love about short story writing - the freedom to be utterly self indulgent!

Dan.

Becca at 07:35 on 07 March 2004  Report this post
I've never thought about short stories as pieces in which you can be free to self-indulge, but maybe it's true in terms of the subject matter. Very abstract and cutting edge stuff is much more acceptable in short story form than in novels. Interesting thought.
Anyway good luck with the above, it's got some very gritty tension in it.
Becca.

Ralph at 16:07 on 07 March 2004  Report this post
Hi Dan

What I really loved about this is the way you drag the reader into the reality... At first, it can be taken as a particularly rough end of the present, then you slowly lead into the idea of this being a more general experience of the future. You had me questioning the narrator's perception and mental state on occassions, but by the end of this I was right with him... an incredible piece of writing.

This does seem more the beginning of something than a totality, but that's even better. I'm looking forward to reading more...

Only one real quibble. As Julian said, watch out for the past-perfect and, ever so occassionally, the passive that creeps in. And maybe consider breaking the passages up slightly...

Minor stuff. I found this really refreshing, dark but well observed and believable. And utterly gripping.

All the best with it

Huggs

Ralph

Dan at 16:18 on 07 March 2004  Report this post
Thaks Ralph.

This piece may in fact be the end of the novel, rather than the start - don't know yet. Probably the end, as I always seem to write the end first.

Have sent WW message, by the way.

Dan.


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