Motherhood

Looking down into pools of dark laughter
My core lifts and a breath is missed
You make me strong and vulnerable
For you I would do anything, anything

Pictures in my mind, a running film
Things that may or may not happen.
It’s easier to visualise the things I fear
Than dare hope for the things I dream

In denial the day you came
Could not allow acceptance until certain
That the pains that tore me apart
Brought you safely to the world

Oh but what a world. How can I think it safe
When each day brings news of more to come
The torment of giving life is nothing
When you have so much to lose.