How could I scream with open voice
And clearly state, I have no choice
But go into this willingly,
Although my body seems held back
Refusing to respond to me.
Perhaps my stuborn bones will crack
For holding me so rigidly.
Surely someone here must see
The fear behind my dignity,
The hopeful happiness I lack?

Forward into realms unknown
With resigned willingness I'm thrown,
Though everything inside me fought
Against my guilty forward feet.
I tried to make my only thought
For him that I was here to meet,
And though my voice inside seemed caught
And every part of me distraught
I spoke the pledges that meant naught
Though it was never my deciet.

Sometime distant bells will ring
To emphasise the ending.
As they once rang harsh and clear
But then I was not listening,
My mind was siezed with guilt and fear
Whilst all around was glistening
With frosty chill to bring a chear
To vision eiree, yet sincere
My inward scream to any ear...
If any ear was listening.