I have never denied God
I do not know
What that might mean
Or why He would care
Death is not an event in life
Wittgenstein said
If there is life after death
Then there is no
Being dead 
Just two modes
Of living

If death is the end
Then there is no
Being dead
No pain no grief
No regret no fear
Just - no being
Whatever that might mean

The pain of death
(Not dying)
Is felt by the living
Death makes life sacred
And love shows
we see the truth
and at last
We understand.