Helpless


Enough hard truths and promises
Hugs and kisses stained with secret regret
And interrupted eye contact

You wobble between parallel worlds
Clutching, afraid to let go
When letting go will send you crashing into fact,
And in your dreams
Weave thin stories
Around the lie of your fabricated life
Paying your way with excuses
Existing in a haze of hope
And despair
When reality tethers you to a noxious plant
Growing somewhere in a war torn land

Reality
That keeps you from being
That loses you from meaning

While well meaning promises
Stuff the mattress supporting your back-tracking spineless effort
With imagined dreams of breaking the habit
Of fixing it

Thinking about it
Is not doing it