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****** i swear ******

by  donnadiva

Posted: Saturday, March 18, 2006
Word Count: 312
Summary: written for my sister-through her eyes, as i do not have any personal experience of the subject, i can nly imagine her thoughts.




**** i swear****

i swear to god - tomorrow i,ll quit,
from the doctor, i,ll get my script,
on DF,s and VALIUM i,ll be fine,
they,ll help me beat this addiction of mine.

just leave me alone,
until tomorrow,
i,ll cause the family no more sorow,
i swear i,ll knock on the head,
otherwise - i,ll end up dead.

then my mind starts playing tricks,
all i need,s just one more fix.
tommorow - it will be here soon,
i,ll throw away the needle and spoon.

but right now is all that matters,
my boby and mind are in tatter,s,
this fix will be my very last,
when tommorow comes,
it will be the past,

i,ll dance wih the devil, one more time,
then come tommorow, i,ll be fine,


no one know,s the pain im in,
i need to let the brown begin,
up my vien, and to my head,
im lying on my pleasure bed.

im on my way to my amazing place,
the colour draining from my face,
just as i am nearly there,
my world- it turns into despair,

i,m on a landslide, straight back down,
i shut my eyes, i hit the ground,
i open them up-
what do i see***
real life - reality-
staring at me.

i never can reach my fantasy land,
my journey never goes as planned,
i,ll have to get sorted to travel once more,
but first i,ll have to go and score,
i have,nt got the energy-
but satan,s voice is torturing me,
he tell,s me that i have no choice,
oh how i hate his evil voice.

i know that in an hour or so,
i,ll be back on my journey,
raring to go,
back to the needle, spoon and brown,
my fantastic journey,s worth the come -down!

i swear tomorrow-
i,ll be fine,
when i get this script of mine.